I made this word cloud by using this website called wordle . I basically copied and pasted quotes about gossiping by famous people and...BOOM!!! The word cloud is created. So...My school holidays have started and this year has been tough for me. Firstly, my basketball teammates talked behind my back and caused me to leave. Secondly, I have this friend called Calista, and everyone in my clique talks behind her back, including me. Gossiping isn't all that bad. It's bad when it's a LIE and it's worst if one SPREADS about it. People gossip to socialize. Is it wrong to socialize? No. But is it wrong to ruin someone else's life? Yup. Right now I'm just gonna tell you briefly about my experience with gossiping.
So the story goes:
In the beginning of school term, I kinda hurt my shin during P.E and my teacher told me to stop exercising for a while and if it still hurts, I should see a doctor. So, the next week I skipped P.E again cause my shin still hurt and my mum promised to bring me to the doctor. I went for X-ray, got my medical leave and couldn't do any physical activity for about 1 month. At that time, I was in the basketball team. The team was very strict about training and the teacher-in-charge can kick you out anytime he think you're not good enough. I was really unlucky then. My teammates started talking behind my back. They said I didn't take training seriously and was lazy and other hurtful shit. Apparently, they don't know that I know that they are gossiping about me because a few basketballers who are really loyal to me secretly told me about this. (Thanks! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!) What happened next? Well, the-teacher-in-charge obviously heard about these bullshit and asked me if i wanted to leave the team...I was kinda sad at that time. I mean who wouldn't be? Basketball is one of the toughest sports in my school and we have to go through hell 2-3 times a week! Most people reading this might think that 2-3 times a week is nothing, but if you're from my school, you will rethink about this. I come from a prestigious school so trying to balance your grades and co-curriculum activities is not easy. Worst of all, you need to have a GPA of 3.5 and above to stay in the basketball team. What the hell? I've worked my ass off for 1 and a half years just to continue to be part of the team. Training ends at 6-7pm and I live really far away from school. I still have to rush my assignments and homework afterward and to make it even worse, I have tuition too! Like I even need tuition! >< After all I've done, after all the blood, sweat and tears, after all the time I've sacrificed for the love of the sport and my teammates (why did I even do this for MOST of them?), you want to kick me out? FINE! Guess what, I'm gonna leave a happy and free person! HMPH! I no longer have to be fearful of gong for practices and no longer have to feel left out by you guys. Yes. I was left out. Most of the basketballers don't want to talk to me. What mad me sadder was that, the team seemed a lot happier without me. Urgh whatever...-.- I'm not gonna be bothered by that. And whoever said I joined basketball to be popular...YOU'RE DEAD WRONG. I joined it because a senior thought I was really good and I hate rejecting people. After many times of training and practices I grew really fond of the sport and my teammates. But now...I can't..I can't even...never mind ): I just can't believe my teammates would do this to me...Oh well.
I used to be really popular back then because I was in basketball, now not so. I guess basketball is popular because if you are friends with seniors and juniors in the sport...you're basically friends with everybody in school. From an outsiders point of view, people from basketball have lots of fun together. Many people in school be with the basketballers because they seem to know so cool and fun to be with. They just have this aura of coolness. Furthermore if someone from basketball is dating someone or has a crush, the news spreads like wild fire. Most importantly, most of the basketballers are either really good looking, rich or have lots of popular friends. So yeah...I guess you can see why basketball is such a popular sport.
Phew* That was a lot of ranting...so? Should I continue writing about my friend Calista? Or should I do it another day? Nah...I should since I already brought her up.
People change. Some become
a complete stranger
My first impression of Calista was a cool and popular girl. She's got the popular-girl look and hair, she also owned lots of cool girly stuff. We are all required to wear school uniforms to school but some people chose to wear it differently. She was one of them. She would alter her skirt so it looked like a miniskirt. She would tie her hair up really high like how cheerleaders do with colored hairbands and wear really distracting ear studs.
The first two pictures are from http://www.rachelltan.com/ . She's so GORGEOUS! And that's how Calista dresses just that she doesn't carry a handbag and ties her hair up in a high ponytail like the 'girl' in the third picture...Haha.
We weren't really good friends from the start. We were just classmates. She and this girl, Charisse were really good friends and they would laugh loudly(kinda annoyingly) together everyday. They went out together many times then one day, they became enemies. I don't know what happened. Maybe I should ask other people. So Calista and Charisse started talking behind each other's backs and shit. I myself don't really like Charisse. I'll blog about her next time. From what I remember, Calista stopped hanging out with Charisse and sat at another table. A few months later, Calista and I ended up in basketball. She started talking to me and I think that's how I became really close to her. We would talk about boys, our idols and rumors that are circulating in school. We shared secrets, went out together. She would tell lots of amazing things about her that made me think she was really cool. She told me how lots of boys have confessed to her, she told me that she is going to move into a big house. I was really naive and believed every word she said. But then, she left the basketball team at the end of the year.
The next year, she was still the same cheerful, gay, goofy person I've always loved. She comforted me when I was being back stabbed by my teammates. She stopped worrying about her image and stopped hanging with other popular kids that she hangs out a lot with. She spent a lot of time with me and my other friends and we formed a clique of 11 people. Big eh? The 11 of us were really really close. Many people in my cohort knew about my clique. We would sit together at lunch, go and have dinner at a restaurant nearby after school. Then everything changed when she started talking to guys from other schools. Everyday in class, she would text guys rather than talk to us and after school, she would go hang out with them rather than us. We found out that she was dating one of them too. She went back to worrying about her image again.
Last Friday, my clique went out to watch a movie after school because it was the last day we're gonna be classmates. T.T It's just so unfair for the school to split us up like that! Why can't the school just let us stay in the same class til we graduate???? :( For the movie right, we went to Cathay Cineleisure to watch the latest James Bond series, Skyfall. The movie was okay I guess. I could guess what's gonna happen next anyways. Calista was ill that day and didn't come to school. She took a photo of herself and posted it on Instagram(who in the world does that when they're sick?). However, she found out that we took a clique photo without her and wanted to go to the movies with us so we can take another picture with her in it. My clique reached the shopping mall before her and we went window shopping. It was so F-U-N! Then me and two friends kinda split up and went for lunch while the rest were shopping for posters with their idols face on them(I couldn't find my favorite kpop band so I left after awhile).
We were eating and one of them called and asked where we were and they came to join us for lunch. To my surprise, Calista showed up wearing a cropped tee with no singlet underneath, so she was basically just wearing a cropped tee and showing the rest of the world her tummy. The thing is, if you have a nice abs or a slim stomach, go ahead, wear a cropped tee, bralet, bustier, go shirtless, whatever. Calista didn't have a nice stomach and plus, she was wearing really tight pants so it squeezed fats from her tights up to her tummy. Eww. Oh well. No wonder she asked all of us what we were gonna wear to the movies. All of us wore our uniforms. If she was sick, and suffering from a 38.5 degree Celsius fever, why would she wear a cropped tee and shorts...for a freaking movie...in the FREEZING cinema? Why???!!! She's just not the person I used to know. Now that I'm more mature, I realize that she uses a very awkward tone when she's telling us something, it makes me feel like she's not telling the truth or that she's hiding something from us. Oh well, i'm not gonna be in the same class as her anyways.
P.S she's an attention seeker...just sayn'
I wish life wasn't just about
"what-ifs", but more of "oh-wells"
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